Thursday 15 October 2009

fluttery butterflies flipping in my tum

I'm playing the waiting game again, and my stomach literally flips over (okay not quite 'literally'!) when I think about the Maximuscle Body of 2009 comp.

I've been told we'll find out by the end of this week...

I think my heart has shifted to the middle of my ribcage and is trying to work its way up through my throat!

I keep mentally simulating the emotion I'll feel if/when I'm told I haven't won... I think this is my subconscious coping mechanism... but then there's this little part of me that wants to imagine how I'd feel if I won... I'm trying to restrain that part, push it down, squash it, squish it, subdue it, suppress it, suffocate the hope because I'm so scared of being disappointed!

arghh

this is why I don't enter competitions, EVER!
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4 comments:

  1. TOTKat15 October 2009 at 15:46

    *crossed fingers and toes and nose and hair and...*

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  2. Tara Stevens15 October 2009 at 17:00

    Thank you thank you :-)

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  3. Cole Walter Mellon15 October 2009 at 21:26

    To quote Homer Simpson: "The waiting game sucks; let's play Hungry Hungry Hippo."

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  4. Dayne Gingrich16 October 2009 at 21:45

    INCREDIBLE! Love this... looking forward to reading more.

    Thanks for stopping by Coach Your MInd and giving it a peek.

    -Dayne

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